i went home for labor day weekend (oxymoron) because we and a family reunion.  It was actually a lot of fun, and i have to admit it was great to see my mom's family for a good reason!...thats about it for know...time to promote the march!...I'M OUT!

I always thought that my saving grace was my mind....after today im not so sure.   I love to think, and i have a great imagination maybe thats why im parinoid!? who knows, anyway i was having a talk with a friend of mine and we discussed another friend...what we talked about scares me.  It scares me to think someone would go through so much for a little attention...i know that we all want/like attention but there are some people who will do anything to get attention...thats not good... I dont want to sound like a bad person and im sure writing this will piss someone off...hey it just wouldnt be a typical day if i didnt piss someone off!  anyway i hate when im lied to i hate when people take advantage of my want/need to help i hate when im used...with that said i would like to close with....I'M OUT!

ok at work this weekend i was so happy to see that people still disipline their children, there was this couple that came through my line and their daughter wanted some candy...the mom said no and of couse the girl through a fit (suprise suprise) but to my suprise the mom still said no without giving in to the whining and the dad picked up the kid kicking and screaming spanked her butt (not hard) and took her out to the car....it was an amazing moment i almost cried...I so sick of these "new age" morons who think they are parents just because you can pop them out doesnt mean you are a parent...(i dare you to argue this)and they give in to the childs every whim because they dont have the balls to disipline the damn kid....if you dont believe in spanking, fine dont spank, but at least let the kid know whose boss....as the saying goes i wear the pants in the family (parents that would mean you)...i hate turning on the tv to see that another kid became a delinquent, or kids shooting kids because they didnt get there way.  and there is nothing worse than flipping through the channels and seeing every talk show about some kid being out of control...oh please help im a moron and i cant raise a kid right....if im coming off to strong for you too damn bad...this is what i think this is my blog and ...I'M OUT... ...contest at you own will!!

ok at work this weekend i was so happy to see that people still disipline their children, there was this couple that came through my line and their daughter wanted some candy...the mom said no and of couse the girl through a fit (suprise suprise) but to my suprise the mom still said no without giving in to the whining and the dad picked up the kid kicking and screaming spanked her butt (not hard) and took her out to the car....it was an amazing moment i almost cried...Im so sick of these "new age" morons who think they are parents, just because you can pop them out doesnt mean you are a parent...(i dare you to argue this)and they give in to the childs every whim because they dont have the balls to disipline the damn kid....if you dont believe in spanking, fine dont spank, but at least let the kid know whose boss....as the saying goes i wear the pants in the family (parents that would mean you)...i hate turning on the tv to see that another kid became a delinquent, or kids shooting kids because they didnt get their way.  and there is nothing worse than flipping through the channels and seeing every talk show about some kid being out of control...oh please help im a moron and i cant raise a kid right....if im coming off too strong for you too damn bad...this is what i think this is my blog and ...I'M OUT... ...contest at you own will!!

...just let it go everything let your hair down be yourself and tell the rest of the world to fuck off...........it feels great!

Went with my girls to see the movie SAW.....it was AWESOME!!! like no joke it was really freaking good and i highly recomend it to all...yes even you!...I'M OUT

ok so i decided to become a grown up and face reality, i have to transfer.  The company my mom works for isnt doing so well and there is a good chance it might have to close, which means less money coming in.  Since i go to a private out of state school that is kinda far from home i figured i should transfer to cincinnati.  Its an instate public school meaning a hell of a lot cheaper than gannon.  this way if i transfer my little borther will be able to go to dayton which is a private school kind of expensive...

...I'M OUT!

ok so im in a really really good mood....no really im in a good mood...what the hell!

yeah ok so i decided that my kids are going to hate me because im going to embarrass the hell out of them...oh i cant wait.

....I'M OUT!

    beginning the madness

my how time flies when you, busy as all hell!

 I am offically not going back to Gannon university, but because the university of cinncinatti lost my transcripts i cant get in until the spring quarter.  So i am taking the winter quarter off to make some money for school (like an early summer) and at the same time learming the city and university.  Since my sister has an apartment down there i can live with her and not have to be on campus so elimitaing the psycho roommate chance (like kate)  I cant handle another kate, that was a bad first semester. 

    more madness

Ok so i decided to start packing on thursday to leave school and i didnt finish until early friday.  I go take my final exam, go get my car and return to my apartment building.  I started loading my car at 1230 and dont finish until 130 it took me an hour to load my car by myself, and my arms were killing me.  Eventhough i have a blazer i was still unable to get all of my things so on the 10th and maybe the 11th of january when the roommates are back i can get the rest of my stuff.  and that way i can really say goodbye (which will suck).  after i finished packing i had to get exit papers signed so i got that taken care of and offically left campus at 2ish.  I then had to go to walmart and tell them the bad news, they were actually sad to see me go and that made me happy because that ment they actually cared about me. 

   madness continued

and so the world turns, i was kept busy with shopping and wrapping and oh yes baking.  But a historic event happened on wednesday, every one was excited about the possibility of having a white christmas and the weather man had just confirmed it!...but like always they arent completly right we did get some snow but we got a hell of a lot more ice...we had one of the biggest ice storms in history and it knocked down trees, houses, and of course power lines.  at roughly 230 in the morning thursday the power went out in over 40,000 homes mine included.  because of the massive amounts of power outages AEP (american electric power) had to call in reinforcements from kentucky and other surrounding states that could spare them.  actually i think there were even some from texas (which by the way doesnt sourround ohio!)  anyway heath (the city i tecnically live in) was completly out parts of newark and most of granville were out.  just in my county alone there was 40, 000 with out power.  Since we have well water we couldnt flush the toilets, take a shower, wash our hands nothing (it was so gross) Well thank God we had an gas grill that we were able to thaw out since it was covered in ice and snow and cook something to eat!  my dad actually had to go into work since his entire place of business is run on generators but when he came home he said nothing (i mean nothing) was open, places that are usually open on christmas were even closed.  it looked like a ghost town.   Anyway my block was one of the luck ones they were able to fix our power in 20 hours.  But some people like my grandma were out for 4 or 5 days.  actually some are still out today like my brothers girl friend.  our phones werent as lucky as our power because they didnt come back on until 4 yesterday...thank God for cell phones.  It has finally warmed up i believe its 40 something today and the snow and ICE is finally meting away.   this christmas has been a weird one...most people didnt even have power on christmas day.  they had to find shelter in churches and other places of refuge. 

    As my break continues so does the madness!

My grandmas basment was flooded and my cousin has been living down there and going to the university about 5 minutes away.  so the water bed down there needed to be drained and and all the garage sale stuff for next year had to be rescued along with my cousins gallons of babyclothes put in storage in my grandmas basement! we worked on that basement for hours and there is still a lot that needs to be done.  But my cousin josh who lives down there and other cousin brian are coming today hopefully we can get it all done.

    last sip of madness

My parents have been remodeling the house for about 6 mounths now and we are almost completely done.   we have 4 rooms left and 7 rooms done!  thank God i f i never see paint again it will be too soon.   Since my sister and i dont really live at home anymore my mom decided to put us in one bedroom together so my sister mom and i went to lowes to get paint my god we were there for 2 and 1/2 hours until we finally all three agreed on a damn color.  so glad thats done.

  ok well that should pretty much bring yall up to date in my crazy life....I'M OUT!

ok i spent two and a half months fixing a grade my advisor screwed up only to look today and see SHE DIDNT CHANGE THE GRADE  so in other words i did all of that work AGAIN for an F i didnt earn.

                         too pissed to continue -I'M OUT!

ever hear a really great old song and it brought back the greatest memories???

                               I'M OUT

A couple weeks ago my best friends (jenny and Cj) and I went to easten (mall in columbus) and we went to this 50s restuarant called johnny rockets (good place great music highly recomend) anyway we were talking about high school and the people that we have recently seen and all that jazz.  When i brought up who would you like to be better than out of our senior class? well Jenny (tied for class valadictorian) said she wanted to be better than the girl andi that she tied with for number one in our class.  CJ (sweetest girl ever) said she wanted to be better than kate a girl that attempted to make her life miserable whose locker was right next to hers ever year of HS.  And me, i said i wanted to be better than every one.  I wasnt unpopular actually i was the opposite i was invited to parties ate with "the cool kids" at lunch (but only when necessary) and everyone knew my name.  But i wanted to prove to those who talked behind my back (because lets face it girls are evil and they do talk about others) to those who said i would never get a job in the FBI or CIA which ever i choose. and to those who were just assholes in school whether they liked me or not.  I want to stand up at my high school reunion and know that not only am i doing what i have always wanted but im pissing off everyone in the whole damn room.

  So i pose a question to the audience Who do YOU want to be better than?            -I'M OUT

I think putting my sister and i together was a mystake first she gets a flat tire then she has a blow out with the doughnut while heading to the repair shop and finally yesterday she locked her keys in her car!  The bad luck is so unbelievable, that i thought she was kidding when she said umm i think i lock my keys in the car!

I was watching law and order last night and it got me thinking (again) about my future, ive always wanted to be a cop well work for the FBI or even CIA.  But i started thinking about all the other people who are exploring this major and decided that i would like to add the possiblility of relocating to england for a job in my field.  Ive always wanted to live there or at the very least visit so i thought it made perfect sense.  Now all i have to do is graduate College!  sounds so simple doesnt it!?      ok loads to do and no time left

                                                                                                                          -I'M OUT

OH MY GOD! I JUST CHECK MY ADISOR FINALLY CHANGED MY DAMN GRADE!!!!!

my cat Holly has O.C.D. (obsessive compulsive disorder)

my sisters cat Daisy has A.D.D.(attention deficit disorder)

my dog Lucy has A.D.H.D.(same as above but hyper activity added)

the deceased hampster Stan believed he was someone else (harry houdini)

and my brothers turtle Speedy has A.S.D. (antisocial disorder)

WHATS YOUR PET LIKE??                 -I'M OUT!

ok i just got off the phone with my sister...she called me crying... 

apperantly some asshole took it upon himself to belittle my sister when she showed him a little kidness.  anyway she called me crying about what this jackass had said and it got me thinking why do people do this, why do they have to hurt other people and this is the conclusion i have come to (and im willing to defend it) These so called intellectuals take it upon themselves to point out others shortcomings.  But what they are really doing is pointing out their own short comings.  They look at you and see a mirror image of themselves and they dont like what they see so they feel it is there duty and right to let you in on your faults.  Unfortunatly these arent really your faults they are their faults but these people do their best to make it seem that you are at fault and they are superior.  When in fact everything they really see in you they want to see in them selves.  Im no psychiatrist and i may feel this only because im directly involved any of you outsiders care to shed some light you're more than welcome (IM amyk2324) 

the other day someone asked what the quote at the top of my blog meant.....its latin and it means

                         Frankly my dear i dont give a damn!

                                                                      -I'M OUT

please explain:

   Why is it whenever we have a president, republican or democrat, there is always a conspiracy behind what they do or what happens during their "reign"???

    Why is it that one very creative and no doubt on some level intelligent person brings these "conspiracies" to light and everyone atomatically follows???

      Why is it that some people always feel this need to insult religion??? their own religion, other peoples religion, or just religion in general?

       Why do unintellectuals feel the need to praise these other people as if it were their job???

   and finally....

        Why do people try to force their ideals, ways of thinking or living, on other people regardless of the other persons affiliations or ideals????

 TO ANYONE WHO CAN SHED SOME LIGHT.....GO FOR IT!

                                  -my answers are not posted to these questions because i wouldnt want someone to look for my opinion and take it as their own i want people to use their own brain and think for themselves! i promise it wont hurt.                                                            -I'M OUT!

NO NOT MINE!  a girl i graduated with from high school is getting married saturday, and for some reason im going.  I never really got along with this girl but i was invited and so i thought i should go.  I can only imagine how this could turn out. 

   The closer it gets to the wedding the more i start thinking about getting married.  This girl is barely 20 marrying a guy who is barely 21, already they have a baby and no real college education.  Who in their right mind would do that? Granted i am currently single, and not "madly" in love with some guy i knew for less than a year when we got ingaged.  I really do think they are nuts, hell i thought she was nuts when she told me she loved him after they knew eachother a week!  But anyway, i was seriously thinking about this whole marriage thing and decided that im not getting married until after college, the last thing i need is to add more stress to my life. In my opinion im still a kid, my parents pay most of my college bill, i still owe my dad a 1,000 dollars for my blazer, and when im tight for money my parents even pay my car insurance.  There is no way i could be married, im not "old" enough. But if they, Angie and Greg, feel they are ready and know what they are in for than i guess i should shut up and wish them luck so heres to you

                            CONGRATS TO ANGIE AND GREG!  

                                                                                          I'M OUT

ok so this weekend i went home to go to a wedding, it was a nice wedding.  But as we drove to the reception at 8 snow started to fall, no big deal at firstbut it got worse.  my brother and i left at 12 b/c he had a 1230 curfew (mom extended it bc it was his girlfriends sisters wedding) we dont live that far away but with the weather we decided to give ourselves plenty of time.  So we are driving home and it was a little slick but i felt safe becasue my little brother is definatly the safest driver in my whole family, well we were almost home rounding the corner when my brother started to slide he tried his best to correct the car but we were still sliding and we went into a ditch!  we just barely missed the telephone pole! we got out to see if there was any damage there didnt appear to be, but we were stuck so i called my parents so my dad could get his truck to come pull us out.  My  brother was so scared he was afraid my dad would yell at him so i told him to switch me seats and when dad got here i would tell him i was driving, that way he wouldnt get in trouble.  my dad and sister got there about 10 minutes later and instead of going ahead with the plan that i was driving my brother said it was him and that he was sorry.   I was so proud of him! it takes guts to do that.  anyway we got pulled out and the car was ok so my dad wasnt mad (actually even if the car was damaged i dont think he would have been that mad since it was his first accident).  we all got home safe.  

  oh at the wedding my brothers girlfriend caught the boquet and my brother caught the guarder!

                                                           -I'M OUT

I got a new job!  i have been without a job ever since i left PA. and its been as boring as hell.  But i got a call from Talbots (an expensive womens clothing store) and i start today at 7 (basically all i will do is fill out papers and watch movies) i cant wait! i get 9 dollars an hour!

                                                                         hope all goes well wish me luck      -I'M OUT!

oh my god the famous bob rivers does exist!!!! i am just beside myself

Cincinnati accpeted me i'll start school again in the spring! oh joy

hey gannon girls are you skating on the ice up in good ol' erie  (for those who dont get it- hell froze over)

                          -I'M OUT

my sister and i watched the super bowl last night and i have never been so annoyed.  seriously, McNabb either over threw or under threw almost every ball.   How the hell did he make it to first string! (actually he is usually good im just venting) so once aga in the patriots win....

NEW SUBJECT: i found out more weird things about my family;

the windshield wiper (the wand part) broke on my blazer!   and i have no clue how to fix it

                        if any one knows please IM me at amyk2324 or reply to this

                                                 thanks  I'M OUT!

going home for a day, hopefully i can dump this damn cold back on my little brother hes stronger than i am he can suck it up...J/K Man it is so boring down here...i need something to do! any suggestions?

                                                                    I'M OUT!

ok so i got up at 6:30 to go to the gym (i usually go at night) and the gym kicked my ass!  no seriously, i  have no idea how im standing let alone walking! 

       Anyway today as im sure y'all know its valentines day! to be honest this holiday is rather depressing, it almost forces you to find a date so that you arent alone and people dont pity you.  Well ive never been interested in this holiday, i mean if you really love or care about someone you shouldnt have to buy them flowers and candy one day out of the year, you should do it because you want to and do it randomly.  but thats just what i think...Let me know how y'all feel!!                              -I'M OUT

quick update:

       WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE?

I love my parents! my mom and dad sent my sister and i flowers for valentines day! Its nice to get flowers when you arent expecting them! 

got some bad news today a friend from high school is having heart surgery soon...and im a little worried about him.

                                                        -I'M OUT

I cant wait to grow up! 

Ever have one of those days where nothing, I mean NOTHING seems to go right!

so far that has been my day, I decided to come home for a few days, to take care of somethings and to see my family.  And so far the best part of the day was seeing my dog lucy!

Let's hope it gets better                                               I'M OUT!

I found the boy meets world school!

     For those of you  that have ever seen boy meets world they often show the out side of this school that has an uncanny resembalance to the school a block from my university.  

Other starling news...

I was watching the real news last night and saw that they caught this serial killer in kansas (witchita) he is the btk killer anyway he turned out to be this great citizen, with a good family, a church goer and a COP! what a shock...i mean its always the good ones that go bad....               I'M OUT!   

this blog is dedicated to my friend jen leech...

                    HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

                    HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

                    HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR JEN

                    HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

sorry i cant be there to sing it to you, i hope your day has been the best ever, you deserve it

                                                                                      love ya hun,               -I'M OUT

The other day when my sister and  I where coming back from the gym, we heard about this guy who was being accused of rape.  He was claiming that he was falsely accused and after hearing the story my sister and I both agreed with him. ...basically this girl and guy slept together and the next night the girl wrote the guy an email and told him what a great time she had, then a week later after she got back from vacation she was claiming he raped her....  this stuff really pisses me off...

   Women have some serious power at times, with the accusation of rape women can destory a mans life.  If the rape really took place then good the bastard had it coming and deserves to be in jail...but if its fake I personally think the girl should go to prison, or something along those lines that would scare these stupid morons enough to know that the accusation of rape should be taken extremely serious.  With these fake claims running around women will soon loose this power; after all thats what happens when you cry wolf and there isnt a wolf.  Of course at the end of that story the wolf ate the whole damn town, hopefully that doesnt happen in this case. 

In case you were wonder a rape charge can land a man in prison for 10 years or more, When they get out they wont be able to get a job because lets face it who wants to hire a rapist! their neighbors wont want them to live next, they cant get a job, or a girlfriend, they will have lost all the friends and family they had.  Of course this is all assuming they make it out of prison alive! see in the corrections system the convicts have this heirarchy scale... murderers, and high profile cases on top (because they are most dominate) and rapists on the very bottom next to child molesters. its the people at the bottom of the chain that get raped, beaten, and killed in prison.  Im sure people are reading this and saying to themselves...well good the bastards deserve it! and I would agree with you, but only if they truely did it  and werent falsely accused by some chick who just wants money, fame, or hell just beacuse shes bored with her life, or why ever it is people make false accusations.

 So before anyone cries wolf when there is no wolf, think about what you are doing to that guy, his family, and to all the other women out there who really did see a wolf and no one believed them.

ok now that youve read this i want you to understand that i am a women and i take the subject of rape seriously! and this was just something i had to write about.  feel free to comment or question                                  -I'M OUT 

DEAR GOD WHAT DO THEY THINK I AM A MACHINE???

im scheduled to work 7 days in a row......they have got to be kidding, by day six it will be a miracle if i dont collapse

(today is day three and i am soooo worn out)                                        -I'M OUT

i hate being here in cincy, dont get me wrong i love living with my sis and all and i even like my job, i just hate that i never get to see or hardly ever get to talk to my friends back at GU I really miss them i wish i had the money and time to go see them.  Ive been trying to save up but anything that can go wrong has gone wrong.  So hopefully they all read this and enjoy leave a reply so i know youve all read it!  

 This is for my girls...remember the good times

     ....Texas roadhouse

    .....Jen's interesting choice for christmas wrapping when she wrapped my gift  (i think you all know what im refering to...*twitching at the thought* )

.....the wonderful exploits with the infamous D.B. (aka kate the psycho)

.....the werid guys that we "date"  (cough devin and sean cough)

....the two person room becoming a four person room

....the evil girls on the fourth floor

....green day and rascal flatts!

....HOCKEY GAMES

....kim possible and boy meets world!

....jen's man...aka twitch

....walking to mcdonalds and starbucks at night

....snowball fights

....walking twelve blocks to return seriously over due movies in the pouring rain

....and last but not least the MATCHING THONGS!!!

                                   I miss you girls so much we had some great times and not so great times but I will never regret the precious moments we've shared throughout the 1 1/2 we were friends....love you guys and I will try to get up to see you soon

SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY EVERYONE HAS IT OUT FOR CATHOLICS....???

                             i would just like to be informed thanks

I'm still alive

can you hear me

shouting-

at the top of my lungs

I'm here

you can't beat me

i will continue

to strive

My light was dim

but it wasn't gone

your example

filled me with power

Your apathy

helped me feel again

your stagnet character

brought me to life again

I won't do it

I won't die

beacuse i wont give in...

not to the likes of you 

                                                                                       ?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR ASHLEY

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

                  happy 20th birthday...it feels good to be old, doesnt it?

this week has been the first week of the sring quarter at uc and i have discovered something about myself...

    i attract morons!  no really im not kidding i dont know if its where i choose to sit or if its my perfume, but DAMN.  ok so my first class on monday was the only class where the moron rule didnt apply now this could be because its a 400 level class or because im the only non senior.  But i have a night class and damn if it didnt happen these two guys and a girl sat behind me and talked the whole time about spring break and summer and whatever else they could think of that would have absolutely nothing to do with community corrections.  next is my two tuesday thursday classes.  criminology and american history, in my criminology class i was sitting in the second row by the wall and these two girls come sit next me and the whole class they are texting people and talking to eachother and making fun of one of the guys in the front row because of his very intelligent answer my guess is they were jealous because he had what they lacked (intelligence) although im not sure how they could afford to be talking and what not in class because they werent pretty so they would have to rely on something else to make it in the real world.  and in my history class i got stuck sitting next to these other girls who talked about the cute boys and makeup and hair and all the other essentails in life that will help you get a real job (note the sarcasm).   what i really dont get is how these people find me, in my history class there are 750 people thats two times the amount of people that were in my high school.  how is it that these losers find me!!!                           i just dont get it-

ok in my history class there is like 800 people (thats no joke there really is) anyway there are 6 T.A.s (teachers assistants) and there is this one, who keeps looking at me i know it sounds like im being vain or something but im not, he really is looking at me! anyway last thursday when he was passing out papers  i caught him looking at me and he kinda half smiled and walked the other direction. 

Well tuesday (yesterday; this class is only on tuesdays and thursdays) he moved he usually sits in the back half of the auditorium in the middle level to the right as did i.  but i moved last thursday because the girls i was sitting next to wouldn't shut up,and  i moved to the back level of the auditorium in the front row to the left and tuesday he moved to the same level but in the middle section towards the left side....hmmm, maybe he is just trying to catch kids who are playing in class instead of taking notes or maybe...                                                                              I'M OUT! 

BEAUTY IS...

         laughter

         love

         friendship

         desire

         happiness

         courage

         and strength....               MY QUESTION TO YOU....

                          ARE YOU BEAUTIFUL????

three more days till i go to erie to hang out with my girls!

my cell phone is really messed up right now so i have no idea what im going to do, i dont really want to drive that far with no phone, maybe ill get a new one before i leave...

                                     IM OUT-

-if your going to committ a crime...do it once and dont tell anyone about it- mr. meko

-if your going to carry something illegal in your car dont put it in the glove compartment- dr. frank

MY SISTER GOT A JOB!!!!!!

         ok my sister is in grad school and has been worried that she wont be able to get a real job once she graduates for good in august...well last week she went to a job interview in tulsa oklahoma and when she got back she said that she didnt think it went well because of her stiff competition....well apperantly her compitition was nothing to worry about because they just called and offered her the job!!  ....joy to the world...lalalalala....im soo happy for her i know she has been really stressed about this job thing for a while the only bad part is that she will be so far away from home and she has to leave june 20th which for those of you with out a calander in front of them is 47 days away....oh wow there is so much to do i have to find a place to live next year....

parole officer: and the last condition of your parole, you can't leave the state.

parolee: what if i go to newport on the levy (in kentucky)

parole officer: you know why they call it kentucky?...because its a whole other state.

in a wealthy part of town...a sixteen year old boy beats his seventeen year old brother to death with a baseball bat!

a judge lets a thirteen year old girl live with a convicted sex offender!

two kids were kidnapped after they saw their mother, her boyfriend, and their older brother beaten to death!

a convicted rapist was a foster parent to some 50 kids and he adopted a child!

fourteen year old mother gives birth after being shot in the street!

.....whats funny about these lines....

            no one seems to care, ask any college student what is a tragedy to them and they'll tell you the WAR IN IRAQ....what??? the hell with that war over there, what about the war on our own soil, we have innocent children dying and no one cares your too damn busy insulting our president, who by the way, is trying to bring back family values...what is wrong with you people? personally i think yall need to get your head examined. 

People who can't match -plaid and stripes don't go together EVER!

People who are cronically late for everything

Beautiful people who are stupid -you're making enough money to buy an education

Loud car stereos that shake my car -I drive an suv if my car is shaking its too damn loud!

people who talk loudly on their cell phones -i dont really want to hear your conversation!

Paris Hilton in general!

Reality TV -news flash its not real people its staged

people who just can't forgive (umm me)

people who dont know whats going on with their kids

People who dont know whats going on in their society

spoiled kids -would it kill these parents to say NO

perfect people who never make mystakes and keep throwing yours in you face!

thats it for now...

Ok so i woke up this morning at 9, threw my hair in a pony tail and headed to my car to go to the gym.  I get to my car and what do i see...Some bastard busted out the passenger side window and stole the change in my car!  now this is the second time this has happened.  first it was my uncles car on the left side of the street now four weeks later it was my car....IM SO BLOODY PISSED!!!   the bastard busted out my window in hopes of getting a whole 5 dollars in change if that he left some of it in there...and its going to cost me roughly 250 dollars just to get my window replased..hell next time warn me in advanced and ill write you a damn check for 250 dollars ill safe you the time and effort!! I think every car theif, murderer, rapist...etc.. should be taken out and shot they cause more harm than good and they cost society more money than they bring to it...Now my whole week is ruined i cant afford now to go see my roommates in erie, i can barely afford to go home but if i stay in the city i might go nuts   ....To anyone who has ever broken into a car...DON'T FUCKING TELL ME ABOUT BECAUSE ILL COME KICK YOUR ASS!

                                                                                     note the anger   -I'M OUT!

Ive always been impatient...Waiting was something i was never good at

But today the wait seemed harder...Like an unbearable pain

Ive waited for the call...that never actually came

Why does it take so long...for him to realize how he feels

I know in my heart it was meant to be...why cant he see what i see

Oh ive always been impatient...

I dont know if i mentioned prior to this entry, but my siblings and i decided to throw my mom a suprise Birthday party on sat. the 13th of this month.  well it was very stressful but well worth it.  My mom was suprised and the party went very well, except we had tons of food left over (we bought too much).  then on sunday i went to the Ohio state fair with friends to go see the Rascal Flatts concert and since two of them are from columbus it was a total blast!!! it was a record breaking concert the crew stadium was completly sold out.  and if tons of screaming people werent enough excitement there was a fight in the row in front of me!! it was this 12year old chick and some 21plus women who were fighting about the women in front of me....see there were these lesbians in front of me and my friends who were beyond drunk and acting very inappropriate since there were children there...anyway the 12 year olds mom went to get the cops because these women were getting out of hand again (this would be the 2nd time security came) and her daughter and friend were just stnading there when this girl started yelling at them becasue of the mom getting the cops, well the girl had oviously had enough and she started shouting back and it was a big ole mess when finally security and the mom got back and security warned then that they would get kicked out so the calmed a little (very little).  one of the lesbians thought she would be cute and threw her cup with beer in it in the air and got the mom, kid, a few other bystanders and of course ME! wet...I was a little pissed but i ignored them and focused on joedon because he is sooo hot and i had great seats (i could see them very well on stage and my friend got great pictures.

But my weekend wasnt a total blast, actually friday on my way home with my sister in tow my car broke down on I-71, talk about shitty day! so my sis called her BF (who is a cop) and asked him to send a patrol car out to us (to make sure we didnt get hit and what not) well the cop took us to a gas station after we called AAA thank God my parents bought me AAA, anyway the lady from AAA said since we were on the freeway we were top priority she said we would have a tow in under 45 minutes....HAHAHA yeah right more like 2 1/2 hours later! the tow finally got there and they had to tow us all the way home roughly 70 miles! in rush hour traffic...it was a night mare.  and to make matters worse i cant get my car in to get looked at until august 31 so somehow im sopossed to drive to work and the gym and pray i dont break down!!! Its times like these i wish i lived at home...                   anyway that should catch us up until next time   -I'M OUT

have you ever felt like you have just lost your bestfriend? this summer sucks my sister moved to tulsa my best friend has a job in columbus my other best friend is at school all summer...most of my other friends stayed at their college as well.  And i dont know anyone in cincinnati! this sucks i wish someone cold come visit me....

...the good news is i like my future roommate she's really nice and funny! maybe this fall things wil start looking up!

im getting my loan money soon..so i can pay my school bills!!!!

-oh my god, my brothers roommate was cheating on his girlfriend with some other girl at 230am while my brother was sleeping above them (well actually my brother was talking online to his girlfriend at the time)....dude my brothers college roommate is a sleeze!!

                    who does that!                                              _I'M OUT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMY...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

tomorrow i will finally be 21, and an offical adult.  Although they say you're an adult at 18 there are still things you are prohibited from doing.  Well not anymore! Im so excited for my birthday because the day after I'm flying for the first time in 14years to go see my sister and tulsa,OK. and go to a bunch of bars and such....oh i cant wait.  I'm a little nervous about flying but im sure ill be ok as long as i watch the flight attendants, if they look nervous im getting off!  ok well thats it for now...-I'M OUT!

so here's the deal...

...life is crazy, im so busy with work and school and when i have time the gym.  so my econ professor sounds like topher grace (from that 70s show), and there is this chick in my class that talks to me all the time, shes nice but there are just some days when yo want to be left alone.  My D.V. professor is funny, and very loud i think he thinks he needs to yell to get his point acrossed.  My history of rock n roll class is so awesome, thank God i love music!... my other classes suck!

Work- well the boss i hate to work with because she treats me like a child and because she has a way of making me feel like im ugly and worthless...but anyway the store manager is goin to talk to her about it because its really upsetting me and the other managers have told her that i dont like working with this chick (and im not the only one, she is awful!!) anyway other work news...i think they are going to keep putting my on the womens side of the store because the manager of that department loves me and because i enjoy working over there the customers tend to be nicer...well except some evil satan spawn that stole from us the other day I was sooooo pissed off my bosses tried to clam me down but i was hot! come on Im a criminal justice major i get really annoyed when people do stupid shit. 

Awe life, so i turned 21 on the 5th of october and it was a good day i drove to dayton and went out to dinner with my brother and classes all went well, took a midterm (that sucked) but all in all it was a good day! On thursday i got a plane for the first time in 14years that was an experience i was so nervous i was looking for any shifty characters, any bulges in coats, ect.  but anyway i got on a plane in cincy flew to ohara which is the biggest airport ive ever been in! the flew from chicago to visit my sister in tulsa, we had a good time!!  Friday we went to the bars with my cusin i learned some interesting things about my family that i didnt know before amazing what people say while intoxicated...so by 12 that night i had had 8 beers, 4 whiskey sours, and 3 shots (2 jello and 1 that im not sure of)anyway needless to say i was a bit tipsy by the time we got to the IHOP at one where we proceeded to make asses of ourselves. All in all tulsa was a blast except for the hangover the next morning For future reference liquor before beer never fear, beer before liquor never been sicker (just ask me)  ok well im going to get off her leave me a message just for kicks...I'M OUT!

Holy crap can you say long time! damn its been awhile...

    well my life is so crazy and stressed out that i have been going nuts...seriously.  So my brother (who is 18) got engaged and i know i should be happy for him, but i think he is making a really big mistake I mean this is the only girl he has dated ever they have been together for two years which sounds like a long time but really its not.   He has never really lived on his own or paid his own bills or even been responsible for himself let alone someone else.  He is really mad at my family right now too because he thinks that we hate this girl and that we dont want to see him happy...but that is not true! I love my brother and i dotn want to see him make a big mistake like this, and i even like the girl i liked her even before they started dating she is a little standoffish but still sweet.  Its just that i dont want my brother realizing that he married the wrong women 7 years down the road her was never with anyone else and that will cause problems in there relationship and we're catholic so divorce is out of the question....   I have no Idea how to show my brother that i want him to be happy when i really dont support this marriage.   i think they are too young and inexperienced!!! anyone with any idea go for it because i am hopelessly lost.

      On other news there is a little tension between the roommate and i, dotn get me wrong I like her and all i even like her boyfriend but the fact that he is there all the time is driving me crazy! I see him more than i do anyone else in cincinnati...  And if Kate (my first roommate) woukldnt have ruined my ability to tell people exactly what im thinking i wouldnt be stressed out about this roommate situation of course then we actually might be fighting and that would suck...

    Oh God work is crazy one of my bosses is really trying to drive me into the nut house ...No JOKE she keeps treating me like im five and like  I have no experience in retail...um lets try 7yrs. in the business going on 8 its not like its hard actually its so easy its annoying when shes like ....amy did you remember to do the trash (when we close we have to collect the trash), or did you shut off the lights in womens, or (this really pisses me off) when she interupts me whena customer is asking me a question to answer it and then turns to me and says did you know we could do that....I just want to respond yes Mary ive been here for over a year i knew that i could call another store and see if the have the item she is looking for i just did it five minutes ago for her ...where the hell were you when i had a real problem! oohhh she gets under my skin as if you couldnt tell anyway Im not sure why i havent been on in a while, well other than the fact i work 20hrs a week with 18 credit hours (and 4 classes that are 400 level) and the fact that my computer is broken (AGAIN) this place is rather theraputic its nice to get that all off my chest, so anyway if your reading this and your bored respond i love to her what others have to say

Oh yeah another big problem, i think im losing my faith in God (for those of you who dont believe in God you have no idea what this means)  I dont know what my problem is but i go to church and day dream, i cant focus at all and i very rarely pray anymore this is a very serious issue and i have no clue what to do about it so if someone knows please fill me in...I miss the big guy but i dont know how to get him back    -I'M OUT!!!

So tuesday night my roommate in forms me that she is moving out tomorrow (wednesday).  Imagine my suprise! she then said she wasnt supossed to move out until after spring break -and that got me wondering when the hell was she going to tell me this! after i came back from tulsa and saw the apartment was practically empty?! I mean how imature and inconsiderate can you be! anyway last night she told me that the whole reason she was moving was so she could have her own room (for her and her boyfriend) then she tells me that her and justin broke up! but she has already signed this new lease so she is moving out for no reason now personally I think its hilarious thats what you get for being such a pain in the ass and driving me completly crazy.... Anyway thats all i really have today im just trying to pass the time before my next class that i dont think im going to go to anyway                                      oh well                          -I'M OUT!

so on tuesday at around nine ish I got some pretty big news, my roommate comes back from dinner and tells me that she is moving out and has to be in her new place by wednesday (tthe next day) she then goes on to say that she wasnt supossed to move out till after spring break (in 2 weeks) and she cant believe she has to move out so soon,  She cant believe it! well at least she had a clue! I had no clue my roommate was going to move out before september...She later told me that the reason she is moving out is so she can have her own room for her and her boyfriend to share....so there i am with this stunned look on my face slowly coming to the realization that another roommate is moving out on me 1st it was kate the pathalogical liar who hated me becasue i wasnt going to kiss her ass, and then it was my sister who moved out because she got a job in tulsa now sam is moving out At first i was really sad i thought there was something wrong with me but my sister and other roommates (not kate but jen and liza) told me that i was great to live with and that i shouldnt be sad....so i got over the sad part and became rather angry I mean she new she was moving out weeks in advanced and she never bothered to even discuss it with me WHAT THE HELL!? i then realized as i looked around my apartment tuesday night  that i owned practically nothing in this place she had brought everything i had my tv, clothes, and a few dishes other than that i had nothing.  I started to freakout  what was i going to eat on and such Well i was planning on going home for the weekend so i calmed down adn told my self that i could get everything when i went home i could wait three days no problem....HAHA yeah right.... So i go in to work and my boss comes up to me and says hey i put you on the schedule for sunday 12-9 i was like what the F*** I was supposed to have the whole weekend off my first since christmas, needless to further imply i was mad...but i still had saturday off so after i got off friday i drove home, woke up saturday packed up most of my stuff went grocery shopping with my mom and took some pictures for my crime prevetion project. then i went to mass with my parents, then dinner, and then my aunts to get my nails done (which desperatly needed it) after all that i got in my fully packed blazer and headed back to cincinnati i got back here around 1130 and it took me a half hour to unload my car i got everything in my apartment only to see that sam still has somethings in the apartment that she has failed to pick up (p.s. they are still here today)   And i have to put everything away and clean up some things because there is a girl coming to my place sunday to work on our project, so even thought i was tired i unpacked everything and rearranged some things ultimalty getting to bed at like 230 ish and then having to wake up by 7 to get to work at nine because they again changed my schedule i had to work from 9-530 now and i was sooo tired and sunday was a long day.

   Anway the weekend is now over and i finally have some peace and quiet although i still have a lot to do  so i guess its time to say good bye                               -I'M OUT!

I think I'm a bad person, now before you respond and say oh no amy you're not a bad person actually read what i have written.

      This is why i think im a bad person

I no longer trust people the way i should, half the time i think they are lying to me (mostly because they have in the past) and the other half the time what they are telling me just doesnt sound real!

There was a time when i would do anything for anyone no questions asked but they ruined me and now i ask questions and doubt people all becuase i'm damaged

I no no longer do what i want to do i do what society wants me to do and that sucks

so there you have it I'm a bad person  If i havent convienced you, you obviously dont know me very well

Why don't people take my advise?  no seriously I just don't get it you asked for my help I gave it as unbiasedly as I could and you left me hanging....What the hell!  URG I am so sick and tired of giving good advise and having people not listen to me and then come back after the whole messy thing blows up in their face and Go wow you were right I should have listened to you....Well Duh!!!

I'm not claiming to be psychic or anything like that, I just have a lot of common sense and a hell of a lot of experince i read people and situations well and i have yet to be wrong (not saying that it will never happen but as of yet i havent been wrong)

So knowing this why dont people listen to me?! All these crazy people running around asking for all sorts of advise when what they really want is for you to listen to their problem, and then they daydream about the moron who cheated on them while your telling them to dumb the loser because they are no good....Oh for goodness sake he cheated on you three times...that is not a fluke he will do it again...I gaurantee it.

      -Well did she listen?....Hell no she came crying back to me because he did it again...wow who didnt see that coming (umm her) and I am appearantly to damn nice to tell this to her face, its that whole once bitten twice shy thing....last time I had a friend come to me repeatedly to ask for my help in what i thought was an obvious situation, i told her what i thought in a not so friendly way and well lets say it ended badly...so now im all nice about my adivce...

    damn damn damn                           thats it I'M OUT-

Today is my Birthday and I turn 22....

Its so weird to say that I dont feel that old and i certainly dont act that old (well i have my moments), tonight should be a good night going out with the Girls to the cheesecake factory  I love that place!...then after class tomorrow I'm heading home for the weekend.  I cant wait till I graduate in march and am completely done with college!  I had some good times but I'm ready to move on.... I can't wait to get my job in Washington D.C.!!!

                              -ok well I have some things to take care of before going out tonight-

                                                                                  -I'M OUT-

Oh men in uniform.....

    ok so as you may have guessed, or not who knows if anyone even reads this...anyway I want to be a cop, have for a very long time and seriously doubt that will ever change.

               -Ive got a new internship last quarter I did ride alongs with the cincinnati police, and this quarter im doing it with the university of cincinnati police (which by the way is a real police force with arresting powers and all they are hired by the state not UC) anyway the cop I rode with was so damn cute!!!! and had the greatest butt I have ever seen!!!   Its a shame he's married (and ten years my senior)!

Anyway just thought id reitorate that men in uniform are hot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                                                               -I'M OUT-

So I have these weird feelings inside me some are hate, some are frustration, most are happy with just a little bit of stress.  Work is driving me crazy, school is getting harder and life is a whole big crazy mess.  I'm falling for a 38 yr. old cop (I'm 22 by the way) who is synical and what not so not the greatest role model for a future cop.  I have these little spirts of hate that run through me every now in then they dont last long but are rather concerning.  the main problem in my life is school with a little bit of work on top the problem with work is that is a little bit (10 hrs. Im used to 20+).  Bills are piling up and the crazy thing is....I'm not depressed, Im as happy as can be full of life laughter slowly getting back to the way I was in high school where life wasn't this big deal.  Finally breaking away from all the crazy people in my life that made me loose my sight and my faith in God and in people. 

The point of the Criminal Justice System is to make things right when all else Fails!!

                                                                    -This is what I believe in....

Have you ever seen those people that are always going through something bad?

 And you feel terrible for them all the time but there really isn't anything you can do

• Well what happens when you feel like crap and something bad is happening to you?

Do these people even notice??? do they care??? actually does anyone really care when anyone else is having a hard time???

• Makes you wonder....well actually it makes me wonder

...-I'M OUT 

Ok so I have a slite problem...

    See I made a deal with myself no guys until after I graduate (in 15 days).  But there is this guy, well actually two.  We'll call these guys X and Y.  Ok my friend lets call her Z likes X and wants me to find out if he has a GF, and i have no problem talking to guys so i volunteered then i realized she liked X who I already liked and so Im freaking a little b/c I would always choose a friend over a guy.  (Ive done it before actually)  anyway the other problem is with guy number 2 otherwise known as Y he is cute and smart, there is just one problem He is younger than me.  normally that would not bother me but I'm graduating very soon and moving away from this City and I dont want a long distance relationship.  Especially now that Im out of school for good (or at least until I go back to get my masters).......URG I dont know what to do maybe just be friends?  The modst interesting part is that i have more than one class with both of these guys, so if something went wrong I'd be screwed for the rest of the quarter.                      I'M OUT! 

HAHAHHAHHHAHAHAHA

   to all of you poor fools still in school....I'll be offically done with school....high school, college the whole nine yards!!!! one more week (finals week) and I'm done

      joy to the world the end of school has come...let earth receive me!!!

   ok so the lyrics suck but deal with it because I'M DONE!!!!!

...oh yeah and I have a job, I'm offically a grown up oooh look at me go! 

I watch the clock as hours tick by

I wait and try to catch your eye

I work so hard

to make you see

The one for you is me

I live for your heart

and dream of all that we could be

the clock keeps going

and yet you still dont notice

I try so hard for just a glance

I know I'm for you and you're for me

I just don't know why that's so hard to see

I will wait until you open your eyes

and see all that I am

Today I feel like an old T-shirt, its the favorite T that you wear all the time and has been washed so much its worn out...thats what I feel like i've worked six days this week which really isn't that much but when 5 of those days are 12 hour days plus im averaging 4 hours of sleep..Im exhausted just in general worn out, and to top it off the BS at work is piling itself very high.  I dont understand how the reliable employees keep getting the shaft while the morons rise to the top? That just doesnt make any damn sense!.....its just frustrating ....         I'M OUT

its really been awhile since ive written on here well this is the first time I've had the time and something to talk about so my baby (not a real baby- my car) was hit by some kid who can't drive and I'm devistated!!! this was my first car (well that i owned) plus I was 4 months ahead on my car payments and i did nothing wrong yet I still got hit and a little injured nothing big just really sore the doctor gave me some muscle relaxant but i haven't filled teh prescription yet. anyway before that I had a good break from work and visited a few friends up north it didn't end as well as it started but thats not a huge deal I'm quite used to feeling stupid. I'd go into detail but I dont really want to sooo moving on anyway the drive back sucked the weather was terrible I could hardly see 5 feet in front of me but i made it home safe (accident happened 2 days later)

I have so much to say but not the energy to write it besides I have to go study for the police test adious

-I'M OUT

Did you know I that I dream

Did you know that I cry

Did you know that I want to lay down and die

I see you with her and it breaks my heart

I never thought I'd fall apart

I want to give in and let tears flow

but I just dont think I can let you go

Did you know I that I hope

Did you know that Ithat I pray

Did you know that I want to be your girl

I live for the day that you'll be mine

Though I feel that day will never come

I hope and I pray that destiny will swing my way

and give me my happily ever after

 Today's Date 11/7/09 9:51pm

The last time I wrote on this site was exactly one year ago today, and my parting words were that my brother's wedding would go smoothly...Well that was a waste of good words.  Long story short I have not spoken to my brother since my entire famliy was told by the most classless person I have ever met, "to get the Hell out" and no I'm not paraphrasing or adding for dramatic effect, someone actually told the grooms family to get the hell out of a wedding reception.  What did we do to deserve that you might ask...well my 17 year old brother brought his honor student 16year old girlfriend to the wedding.  I swear on my own soul that that is the reason we were thrown out.  The reason I mentioned that she was an honor student is because I don't want anyone to think less of her, she is a very sweet girl and did nothing wrong yet for some reason my other brother's wife threw her out of the reception even though there were 5 empty seats.  It was classless, rude, tacky... I'm sure I could find more words in the thesuarus but they would not change the fact that I haven't spoken to my brother since his wedding day.  I'm sorry for the out come of that day, and I hope my brother knows that we really do love him and miss him and not a day goes by that we don't think of him and wish things were different.  Brief Note: for those that think we should grow up and overcome this stupid issue, You're right and we (my mom, dad, grandmother, sister, etc.) have tried everytime I see my brother I wave and honk my horn, he pretends that he does not see me or know who I am But I drive an orange car (trust me it leaves an impression).

This week my sister is getting married on November 14...we joke with her fiance about getting kicked out of the wedding but John (her fiance) was there that day and he knows how that killed my mother she was always very close to my brother.  And as the day draws near the jokes have lessoned.  Tomorrow is the official one year anniversary of my brothers wedding I truely hope they are happy, but I do miss him. 

I've been working on my toast for my sister's wedding (I'm the maid of honor) and I have never been more nervous in my entire life.  I have no trouble talking, but this is a mini speech in front of 200+ people who will not yet be intoxicated.  I know I'll be fine but I still feel a little sick to my stomach at the thought.

Work has been a little stressful, People keep telling me how good I am and that makes me feel really good however the promotion is taking it's sweet ole time mean while I have a boss who looks and when she doesn't get her way acts like a 12 year old (not an exageration).  Some times I have to hold her hand but sometimes she does quite well on her own.  Mainly she misses the big picture our job is not just two fold, more like twenty fold there are two main parts that are then broken down into much littler parts.  I love what I do but some days it can be a handful;  I'm just stressed I needed this vacation that I'm on right now.  9 days off work is the longest I have ever been off work in my entire life and I've been working since I was 15...I'm 25 in case you're wondering.

The rest of my year since my brother's wedding has consisted of two things Deaths and Weddings.  Two of my cousins died this year one in February and one in March on each side of the family.  The first death in February I'm sad only because he was young and his family loved him.  He was 28 but he died of a herion overdose.  I have no sympathy for drug users (think what you will of this) I have never no will ever touch drugs I believe it is a personal choice, and although it is sad that he died considering his life style I'm not suprised.  I went to his funeral to support his family my aunt, uncle, and cousins.  I would never be so crued as to point out to them what I just wrote to you.  They have suffered enough at the loss of a son and brother, but I don't morn the loss I hardly knew him I hadn't seen him in some 5 years at my grandmother's funeral and even then we did not talk.  I do not think that I am better than he or anyone else who chooses his  life style, that is simply their decision, I wish him peace and hope that he is happier now than he was here.  The second death was in March two weeks after the first, this one I was unbelievably sad about.  She was 34 and had a rare nurological muscular disorder.  She was diagnosed at 12 and was told then she would not live to see 20.  I don't believe that she is a mrytar, but I do believe that we can learn a lot from her she never gave up she worked up till 3 months before she died she only left her job because she was laid off after 16yrs.  She never sat at home on tax payers dollars, she worked for everything.  We were very close she was like a sister to me I know she doesn't suffer now but it's still hard.  After my cousin died my family threw themselves into my sister's wedding anything we could do to keep the pain out.  My cousin lived with my grandmother up till 3 months before she died so it is especially hard on her.  I will always think about Tonya with a smile.

Also this year I dated someone new...He was a Jerk, and the sad or rather pathetic part is that I knew long before I ever gave him my number.  I guess lonely people do stupid things.  He totally used me for money, little hint I'm not rich not even close I work very hard for my money and am trying to repay college debt.  he is a jerk for taking advantage and I am an idiot for not stopping him, I'm smart and I knew better, at least I can say that I dumped him.  Totally starting to believe that there are no good guys out there for me, I know there are good guys out there just not one for me.  The hard part is getting used to the idea.

On a happier note...more or less I do get to work with some very good looking guys, unfortunatly they have girlfriends so that means back off but I can still dream.

                                  ok well I've been on here for a while and well I'm tired I haven't typed this long since my last term paper in college so good night, this is rather soothing so I'll probably write more soon