Holy crap can you say long time! damn its been awhile...

    well my life is so crazy and stressed out that i have been going nuts...seriously.  So my brother (who is 18) got engaged and i know i should be happy for him, but i think he is making a really big mistake I mean this is the only girl he has dated ever they have been together for two years which sounds like a long time but really its not.   He has never really lived on his own or paid his own bills or even been responsible for himself let alone someone else.  He is really mad at my family right now too because he thinks that we hate this girl and that we dont want to see him happy...but that is not true! I love my brother and i dotn want to see him make a big mistake like this, and i even like the girl i liked her even before they started dating she is a little standoffish but still sweet.  Its just that i dont want my brother realizing that he married the wrong women 7 years down the road her was never with anyone else and that will cause problems in there relationship and we're catholic so divorce is out of the question....   I have no Idea how to show my brother that i want him to be happy when i really dont support this marriage.   i think they are too young and inexperienced!!! anyone with any idea go for it because i am hopelessly lost.

      On other news there is a little tension between the roommate and i, dotn get me wrong I like her and all i even like her boyfriend but the fact that he is there all the time is driving me crazy! I see him more than i do anyone else in cincinnati...  And if Kate (my first roommate) woukldnt have ruined my ability to tell people exactly what im thinking i wouldnt be stressed out about this roommate situation of course then we actually might be fighting and that would suck...

    Oh God work is crazy one of my bosses is really trying to drive me into the nut house ...No JOKE she keeps treating me like im five and like  I have no experience in retail...um lets try 7yrs. in the business going on 8 its not like its hard actually its so easy its annoying when shes like ....amy did you remember to do the trash (when we close we have to collect the trash), or did you shut off the lights in womens, or (this really pisses me off) when she interupts me whena customer is asking me a question to answer it and then turns to me and says did you know we could do that....I just want to respond yes Mary ive been here for over a year i knew that i could call another store and see if the have the item she is looking for i just did it five minutes ago for her ...where the hell were you when i had a real problem! oohhh she gets under my skin as if you couldnt tell anyway Im not sure why i havent been on in a while, well other than the fact i work 20hrs a week with 18 credit hours (and 4 classes that are 400 level) and the fact that my computer is broken (AGAIN) this place is rather theraputic its nice to get that all off my chest, so anyway if your reading this and your bored respond i love to her what others have to say

Oh yeah another big problem, i think im losing my faith in God (for those of you who dont believe in God you have no idea what this means)  I dont know what my problem is but i go to church and day dream, i cant focus at all and i very rarely pray anymore this is a very serious issue and i have no clue what to do about it so if someone knows please fill me in...I miss the big guy but i dont know how to get him back    -I'M OUT!!!